I Need To Convey, Wish I Could Explain

1.

he looked up at her & smiled, & for a second something in the world was right.

2.

tell me you've had trouble sleeping;
that you toss & turn from side to
side, that it's my face that you've been
seeing in your dreams at night.

3.

even though i pretend that i've moved on
you'll always be my baby.

4.

whenever a memory pops into your head, you always have to wonder.
how many more times will i be able  to remember that?
will i ever remember that again? how many times can you revisit a memory?

5.

 i want something real, something i can touch
& hold onto. a love that makes my heart skip,
& gives me that amazing feeling in the pit
of my stomach. i want forever.

6.

your eyes still give me a reason to breathe
& our midnight conversations still mean
everything to me.

7.

 i'm leaving you. i'm going home,
& all you can do is just watch me go.

8.

the biggest mistake you can make is to
drift apart from someone you once had
the time of your life with.

9.

what you don't know can't hurt you.
it's what you suspect that screws everything up.

10.

things with us are never normal..
i think we like it that way. never knowing
what might happen from one day to
the next. i think that`s why we can't
ever let each other go.

11.

you put your arm around my waist,
& pulled me closer.
it didn't feel weird or crossing any lines.
it made sense, it just felt right.

12.

i've tried forgetting but that didn't work. so i've come to terms
with who you are and who you've been. the only thing i wish you
could see is what you really could be. your past doesn't make
you decide who you are. & i know you're not sorry,
but i've forgiven you.

13.

it was like she was only there when it was convenient for him;
like she was the gas station, no one ever visited unless their
tank was coming up on empty. yeah, there were days when she
hated him, and there were days when she was head over heels
too. but none of those days mattered because she could never
have him no matter how hard she fell.

14.

i never understood the concept of addiction, how people could
long for cigarettes, or weed, or alcohol so badly that it hurt.
until i met you. now i know how it feels to be 100% relient
on some kind of substance that will never satisfy me.

15.

i loved you once, can i love you again? i don’t know. but i would
like to recapture what we once had. and how can we do that if
you’re not here. so, i’m asking you, please stay.

16.

i just thought to my self, all of a sudden,
that we had something in common. a
natural chemistry, if you will. & i had
a feeling that something big was going to
happen. to both of us. that we were, in
fact, meant to be together.

17.

i liked when my fingers are entangled in
yours and my head is on your chest listening
to your heartbeat. it makes me feel safe, like
at that moment, nothing bad can touch me

18.

sometimes, between people, it takes a long time to get over the disappointment they can cause each other.

19.

retrace & let it go, i tell myself that we'll never remember embrace & watch it die,
to live again,  or we will never remember today.

20.

what's worse than wanting something you can't have? it's not knowing what you want. wishing on all the stars in the sky for the answers to your questions, for something to believe in... someone to hold. having absolutely no control over yourself, being caught up in a place you wish you were miles away from. being stuck somewhere between the past and the future, nowhere near where you should be - in the present. stuck in yesterdays and tomorrows, so far from home, far from everything you know and love. the uncertainty could just tear you to bits.

Only Get Hurt

here's to the girls who used to be his number one. the one who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller id the next morning & be disappointed. the one who made it through that bitter break up, dried her own tears, & moved on with her life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. you're the one who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. you're the one who listened to him say, "i only want to be your friend", one day, & the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. you deserve something, & this is your tribute. here's to you, the one that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. you listened to me tell you that you were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from your parents, & even snuck around to see him for while. you went through the great stage with no fights all over again. you started this out thinking it would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him all over again. you wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved you too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. & when you finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. this is for you boo. here's to you, the one who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. here's for the tears cried & dried all over again. you wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call you at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. you trained yourself to believe the lies because you wanted to believe you had found the one for you. you learned to settle for someone who didn't treat you the way you should be treated. here's for you, the one who did your hair  make up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see you today. the one who never believed it when people told you there might be someone else. you just couldn't believe that he could do this to you again. this is for this amazing girl who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because she couldn't bear to look back on her life one day & wonder "what if". this is for you that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation. you are the one who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved you. when he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. you're the one that held on to something that was never there to begin with. this is for you, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell you that he was in love with you again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time." here's to you, the one who couldn't cry to me because of how stupid you felt. you're the one who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. you're the one who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "i told you so." you're the one that could just tell that you had made a mistake ever allowing him into your litttle fragile heart & your big dreams again. you knew that you deserved better the entire time, you deserve a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see you whenever he got the chance, one that really cares about you. you just want the one that you love like that. here's for you, the one that finally realized that he never gave a crap about you. here's for the time that he broke your heart again. this is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. here's for you, my bestfriend who finally realized that she deserves better. this is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. stay strong & remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt. remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. when 'your song' comes on the radio, turn the station. when the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. when he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. think of the broken promises, & the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments & staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate & sing bleeding love in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, & realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to. one day you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. you may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. it's going to hurt like crap, & it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. this is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again.

In Love With Him, Can't Find a Better Man ..

1.

 why is it that just when you get things together, you hear from the one person who could pull it all apart?

2.

 never ignore a person who loves you & cares for you. 

one day you may realize you've lost the moon while counting the stars.

3.

did you know that cinderella didn't have to take her dress off to win her prince?
she had romance without regrets,
& she didn’t lose anything that she couldn't get back the next morning.

4.

you were my life. my world. my everything.
You took my heart, put it in a little box labeled fragile for a few months.
 you then were moving some stuff around,
completely looked over the fact the box said fragile,
in big black letters, dropped it, walked all over it,
completely destroyed it then picked all the little pieces back up,
put it in the box, & crossed off fragile & wrote broken.

5.

you say i'm not your type, & you jump from girl to girl.
well clearly, that's right, because you go for sluts.

6.

so i'll erase everything & i'll forget about you.
it's just too bad that this might be the hardest thing i will ever have to do.

7.

after all these months, all this time, so much has happened.
the talks, the phone calls, the laughs, and the feelings.
if i were to look back on them, i would never believe that, that person was once me.
i wouldn't recognize that girl because she's so different from me
. but i guess changing & moving on is part of growing up.
i'm growing up & finding out what kind of person i want to be for the rest of my life.
& maybe in the future, there are more changes to come,
but as for right now, this is who i'm proud to be.

8.

you want me to act like we've never kissed,
you want to forget; pretend we've never met ,
& i've tried & i've tried, but i haven't yet.
 you walk by, & i fall to pieces.

9.

the shit you hear about me might be true,
then again, it could be as fake as the bitch who told you.

10.

you may start the shit, but you sure aren't the shit.

11.

where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,
which i find myself constantly walking around in the daytime,
& falling in at night.  i miss you like hell.

12.

sometimes you just feel everything & nothing all at once.
sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time.
at times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them.
life comes without guarantees. except that smiling will brighten your face,
laughing will enhance your eyes, & falling in love will change your life.

13.

when i look into his eyes it's like my whole world is flipped
& everything is put into a new perspective.
i can do things i never thought i could do.
i can say things that i never thought i would be able to say to anyone before.
it's like i just want to be with him forever,
hold him in my arms, kiss him, & tell him how much he changed me,
 my life, my everything.

14.

love is like a tug of war:
it hurts so bad to hang on
but for some odd reason,
you just can't let go.

15.

call it desperation, but can't you
see it in my eyes. that i want to be
with you until the sun falls from the sky.

16.

i really can't deny it. i am who i am.
i'm pretty normal. i’m not that smooth
type of girl. i run into things. i trip.
i spill food. i say stupid things.
i really don't have it all together.

17.

i never thought anyone would
ever make me smile, laugh, &
capture my heart as fast as you have.

18.

even though she knows he
doesn't deserve it, she gives
him every little piece of her.

19.

there's two types of people in
the world, the givers & the takers,
& the givers always sleep better.

20.

i miss you, but i’m trying not to care anymore.

21.

we tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have,
but rather of recognizing & appreciating what we do have.

22.

i knew that i never meant a thing to you,
i knew what you said to me wasn't the truth.
maybe you just wanted someone, anyone,
so you choose me & then once you had me,
you left me all alone to pick up the pieces that you broke.

Sorry Dear

Dear Dwi ,
I don't really know how to tell you this, our romance is over. I think I realized it when I finally changed my underwear in your car and I saw you put whipped cream on your ‘My Little Pony’ collection. I'm sure you're middle-class enough to understandthat I get turned on only by garbage men. I'm returning your toe ring to you, but I'll keep your glass eye as a memory. You should also know that I love your sweet, sweet ass and I'm scratching my butt as you read this.

Warm tingly sensations,
melodyliciouz

Here's how you do it :

Dear (Someone you recently talked to),
I don't really know how to tell you this, (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12),
your name

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself.